I wrote “Don’t Be So Onerous On Your Personal Magnificence” as a diary entry, once I was stuffed with self-hatred over ridiculous issues about my picture. My good friend Kin made me understand that there are extra significant issues to understand in life. After which I believed, Why am I so involved about magnificence? I didn’t know the best way to be accepting of myself till lately.
You’ve adopted many different identities on the web, pretending to be a 30-year-old girl if you have been 14, establishing characters named Penelope or Matilda. Are you able to stroll me by a few of your different aliases?
Matilda and Penelope have existed exterior the yeule world for some time. It’s really a personal factor that I began to specific extra publicly to my followers, as a result of that they had some cameos in my music movies. Matilda is the one with the quick, black hair. She’s a silent movie actor, and she or he’s very stylish. She likes to hearken to classical music and sing alongside to somebody enjoying on piano. However she’s obtained an obsession with blood, so she pretends to be a vampire, however she’s really not.
Penelope is a retired fairy from the southern areas of Iceland—really, opposite to well-liked perception, we might not know the place Penelope is from. Penelope is the one with the blonde curly hair in “Poison Arrow.” She will be able to shoot an arrow as much as 6,000 miles away. She by no means drinks espresso, solely inexperienced tea and she or he likes lengthy nails—she says it’s a type of self protection slightly than vainness. There’s one other one I don’t actually discuss, Six. She’s a really spoiled brat actually. She’s a child, so everybody takes care of her. Mainly me once I’m being needy.
The characterization of those folks may be very enjoyable to do, and it’s a method for me to course of repressed sides of me that I won’t be snug with being on a regular basis. It’s like being in drag, ? My love for wigs and make-up and the efficiency of a sure gender is from drag tradition.
How does being Asian form your relationship to our on-line world, your choice to inhabit a cyborg persona?
I wrote a whole essay on techno-Orientalism in uni. As an Asian, as an precise fucking Chinese language individual, I’ve all the time cringed once I see a white individual making an attempt to make use of Asian aesthetics as an adjunct. Utilizing Google Translate to translate like a cool piece of textual content and use it as a username, I’m like, shut up. Traditionally, it’s been so tough for us to make it on this business—Rina [Sawayama] fought so onerous to get the place she is. So when a non-Asian individual tries to take our place and additional their aesthetic utilizing components of Asian tradition, it turns into unfair. A method for me to deal is reclaiming it. If there’s anybody that will get to inhabit this aesthetic, it’s me as an Asian individual. Like don’t put on the schoolgirl outfit when you’re white.
What was it like rising up in Singapore? You’ve mentioned earlier than that the wealth inequality and nationalism is admittedly obvious.
Oh, positively—it’s very nationalist. In the event you’re not for Singapore, then say goodbye to grants or authorities sponsorships. And the training system made me meticulous, in a fucked up method. It was loopy being ostracized when you didn’t hit a sure quantity—like, goodbye. There’s additionally not lots to do when you don’t have cash. It’s like a theme park generally—that’s why I used to be in my room making music and doing stuff on my pc.
Singapore will all the time be my house although, and there are numerous good issues about it—like, bro the sunsets are loopy, the sky is on hearth. And now, after residing within the UK since college, I can return and see it in a distinct mild. I really like seeing my buddies, listening to Singaporean accents. Talking in half Cantonese and half English is so humorous as a result of no one else can perceive what we’re saying. Our slang is half Hokkien as properly. It simply makes me really feel like I’ve a way of group.